Okay, I admit. I'm a shitty blogger. I do not update regularly.
I am boring.
I like to type in lines of three.
And I don't update because.. I don't have nice stuff to share, my life is mundane and boring, and I'm way too lazy to post pictures.
But, well, i'd post pictures of the very small but very romantic alto bbq long long ago at east coast park recently.. Haha. This weekend, promise!
And.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE NG XIANG TING A.K.A THE GIRL WHO GOES 'HEHEHE'.
You're a very lucky girl who has many wonderful people that bring sunshine into your life! And you always seem to be so chirpy. Haha! 15 years old means you cannot act like a kid and sa jiao already k! (I think I say this every year. Lol.)
Well, exams are near! (Gosh, I do sound like every other student who has a blog huh.) And.. I've got no drive to study lah. Zzz. So yeah, in advance for you guys, I'm not going to do as well for this EOYs. So when you see my lousy level position, don't be like, "Gosh, Pearlyn is so dumb! Her level position is like 1020571! Stupid."
BECAUSE I KNOW I CAN KNOCK EVERY ASEAN SCHOLAR FLAT DOWN AND BE #1..But I don't feel like it. :D Hehe!
Life's been really crazy and I've been feeling and doing totally crazy and exciting things that I don't think I should be..
But god does it feel so gooood! *sings to the tune of Paramore's Misery Business*Nah, it feels good for maybe, awhile. And then some part of me starts sink again. Honestly, I'm quite sick of dealing with this whole emotional roller coaster ride. I wish I knew what I wanted, and how things should be. Watching everything unfold in slow motion can really be quite painful sometimes. I just wish I could find some peace, soon. Like that feeling of your life being perfect, even if its for a minute or two.
Everyone who's going through something in their life now is like.. "Now I'm not going to think of anything else but exams.." or "I'm going to put aside everything in the past and concentrate on the EOYs.." Is that a way to escape the chaos and turmoil in the world of reality? You know, somehow I can't bring myself to say that, as much as it would help my situation. Exams might mean alot to some people, not only for the glory of good results. But for my case? I just can't find a reason to do well anymore. And I've been doing fairly well all my life, maybe I should cut myself some slack this time. *shrugs*
Well, all I have to do is bear the consequences of my actions. Sounds easy enough? Heh, I don't know.
Damn, you're adorable. But, sigh.P/S: Now all you naughty little readers out there who visit my blog yet never tag cannot complain I don't update alright! Hmph.
